tightrope

there is a fine line between alone and lonely.

I went to a worship service last night expecting it to be a little weird. because it was a college/youth service and I don't really know anyone there. when you walk in the door, people are already standing or sitting around in their groups talking, and its awkward to figure out where you fit.

however, I was pleasantly shocked to find myself actually enjoying the service while feeling alone. I felt the comfort of being in the house of God with other believers, and yet also enjoyed this kind of space that was just me and God. because I was alone.
in a good way.

and then, at the end, they played this song that was sung by the worship leader at my church in London. and when I closed my eyes, it felt like I was back there worshiping with that body and with my friends right next to me.

when the song ended, I opened my eyes and I felt lonely. but just for a little bit. even that part is good, because it reminds me that even friends who are far away need prayer.